January 25, 2010. I stood before the mirror in my room looking into my own reflection in a black tuxedo. It was actually a sunny day. In fact, that day was my best friend, Ann’s wedding. But I didn’t know why I wished that day was never happened. I tied the black tie around my neck with a half of my spirit. I saw the picture of me and her in a nice little frame. Her sweet smile was going to belong to someone else. If someone were in front of me at that time, I bet he would see the regretness through my eyes. I, Sam Anderson, 25 years old and the foolest man alive.
It came across my mind again. If I had not taken her father’s mandate to be her contiguous for her marriage when her father passed away, I would have take her as my wife already. I didn’t have courage to say to her that I loved her eversince her father gave me that mandate. But that day had come, the day that was going to be regretted by me for the rest of my life.
‘Oh…Come on! Wake up! You won’t stuck here forever!’ Sometimes I cheered my self with those uninspiring words.
It was 8 o’clock in the morning. I had to go to her house which was next door to mine before the wedding was started. I walked into her house, I saw everybody was happy with this wedding. They came to me and congratulated me because I had done with my job to take care of her until she had her destiny to married to someone.
I met her bridge’s family and had a little conversation. They were a nice family, she was lucky to get the best man to take care of her for the rest of her life. The clock kept ticking. Thirty minutes to the wedding ceremony. Before she was really taken by someone else, I went upstairs to meet her. I opened her room’s door, she was alone in there, her friends was already out. I walked in, she looked very beautiful. She was supposed to be like that because that was her day.
“You looks beautiful.” I smiled to her with a full heart break feeling. Maybe she also could see that through my face.
“Thanks.” Her smile showed unpleasantness from her heart. “I hope this is not the last time I see you. Because after my wedding, my husband will take me abroad.” She continued.
“You don’t have to worry about that. I’ll always be in touch with you.”
“Thanks!” She was quiet. She looked at me deeply. “You know, once you ever said to me that I’m lucky to love someone that loves me. But that’s not true.”
“What do you mean?”
“You know what I mean. We’ve talked about this before.”
I remembered that day, two weeks ago we’ve talked about our each other’s feeling. I heard from my own ears that she didn’t really loved her future husband, in fact, she loved me. I couldn’t even believe that. But I knew she was serious. We shared each other’s regretness about our attitude. All this time we were waiting for each other. But then it was too late.
“Come on! We gotta go. It’s almost 9 o’clock. The wedding is about to begin.” She said sadly.
She was one step ahead of me, but when she was gonna walk out of her room, I hold her hand tightly. She stopped and turned around so we were standing face to face.
“I’m really sorry for this. I can’t do anything.” I said with the last strength of my heart to convinced her that I regretted this.
“It’s OK! Don’t be sad! Maybe I’m not decided for you, maybe we can meet in another world next time.”
We both were silent, can’t say anything. I can’t even think straight.
“Can I hugh you for the last time?” her tears finally dropped.
“I hope this is not the last time. Anytime you need me, I’ll always try to be there for you.”
We cried together in a hug remembering how sad that this was gonna end in a tragic story. Just ironic.
“Hey! Don’t cry! You’re the bridge groom. Don’t let the tears make your make up faded away.”
She was laughing in tears when I said that. I tried to cleaned the tears from her cheek.
“I’m sorry.” She said.
“You don’t have to.” I replied.
She arraged her gown before she was out of the room and so was I. Then we walked together out of the room and heading to the car that was gonna take us to the nearest curch. Me and her, we both didn’t say anything in the car. I was thinking about how’s my life next without her, but I did’t know about her thought, I can’t predicted it. But I can make sure that her face at that time was completely unhappy in her wedding day that was supposed to be the happiest day for her. Maybe I would blame myself for this.
Finally, we arrived at the curch. The room was already full of guests. And this was the moment I was going to be regretted for the rest of my life. The wedding music was already set.
“Are you ready?” I asked her to make sure that she was really ready for this.
She just nodded her head and smiled.
As her contiguous in wedding, it was my job to walked and accompanied her to the altar where her future husband was waiting. And when she had already taken by her future husband, my job had done. I sat in the front seat to watch the ceremony. I saw they were the great couple. I was happy for her despite of my heart was broken.
The priest had already begun his words. The words that usually used in every Christian wedding. And time to the main question of the wedding.
“Jared Louis Winchester, do you take Anna Jane Farris as your wife?”
“I do.” The bridge had already answered it with his full heart.
I can’t watch this moment. I wouldn’t strong enough to see the woman that I was in love with was going to be someone else’s wife. I decided to walk out from the room. When I walked, I didn’t feel that the tears suddenly dropped from my eyes. I heard the question was already asked to her, but until I reached the door of the church, there was no voice out from her mouth. I stopped for a while, but I thought that was only made her doubt about her own decision, so I continued to walk and run my own destiny from here with a bunch of tears. I was just about fifty meters from the curch, I heard someone shouted my name. I turned around in a curiousity despite I knew whose voice that was.
“Anna?!” I saw her running on my way. I was asking to my own mind, what was happening?
“Sam, Please don’t leave me!” She huged me, cried with a lot of tears.
“What are you doing here? You’re supposed to be married now!”
“I don’t want to be married with someone who I didn’t love. I love you, Sam!”
“No! Jared loves you and so you do.” I saw her family, Jared and the guests were looking at me in front of the curch. “You have to go back, Ann! I don’t want to ruin your wedding with Jared.”
I saw Ann just cried and didn’t say anything. I was ashamed with Ann and Jared’s family. I was sure they had bad thinking about me because of this. I didn’t know what should I do at that time. Until Ann suddenly fainted. We were all panic and took her to the hospital immediately.
To Be Continued…
(Inspired By One Republic Song “All This Time”)